It seems to me to be a special ability to be able to accept things that cannot be proven to you. The word prove is a very loosely used term. Proof expands from complex mathematical proof to a very subjective philosophical even instinctive feel. The every day man deals with proof as a very useful tool. It is everyone's struggle to be able to explain what happens in their own way and prove to themselves their core philosophies are still untouched. I don't want to confuse philosophy with value. To me, value has always been external. something you project into the world...at times even falsely. But philosophy is what you stay true to.
I wouldn't have noticed this if I was still cruising in life being able to drive on that smooth road that is a well explained life. I am getting to a bump on the road, and I am worrying about it. But. what the bump gave me is the ability to look back on how I was able to conform...but still stay different. If you extrapolate that, everyone has this value that they project into society, which becomes the collective. A society probably needs the collective to remain a civilization. But I find it funny that theoretically, it can be the ultimate false thing. A huge vicious scam brought forth by the human ego - the ego that drives people to conform.
Now I know I am jumping around quite a bit, but in that sense, all of society's rules become this perverted..."why should you if I cant" rule. Mix that with conformity and you have an excellent totalitarian society with very strong and volatile individual emotions running around - no matter how much they claim to belong to a different philosophy. Well, maybe that is what was the vision. I am too lazy to read anyways. But mind you...The guys who say "you should even if I can't" is a very rare breed, that actually make a difference in the world.
OK. Now back to what I started. So, would anyone be able to do something that he/she cannot prove to themselves to be right in a philosophical sense? I don't think so. He might be able to do it even if it contradicts with his values. Because his core philosophy is still intact. But it just proves his values are different from his philosophies. Can you predict such a person? Sure. Because your instinct will give him away.
Now, it is not evil to have values different from the self's philosophy. It is the essential mantra to conformity. Just that the pull between the two has limits. And, when it breaks, it gets ugly. really ugly.
So, when you see your philosophies start to crack, just make sure you take a timeout and think about it. Just be true to yourself lest you stick by your values than your philosophies. The only thing to make sure is to not let it cripple you.
